Saturday, March 30

Bothering

   Everyone wants to know what’s bothering me. For once, it has absolutely nothing to do with a guy.

   First: College.
   It seems like everywhere I turn someone is asking something about it and I give them all the same answer: “I don’t know right now.”
   I honestly don’t know. I don’t really want to go to college once I graduate. I don’t even know if I want to go a few years down the road. I really don’t have any interest in it at the moment.

   Second: Music.
   I love my music and that’s pretty much all I want to do. It makes me happy and I love singing, but getting up on stage to sing in church alone scares me. It always has.
   I never use the word ‘if’ any time I talk about music. It’s always been a ‘when’ for me. I love this quote someone once said: ‘If’ is a dream and ‘when’ is a goal. My goal is to get into singing and I know I can do it if I try hard enough.

   Third: Siblings friends.
   I’m not trying to steal my sibling’s friends, even though that’s what they seem to think I’m doing. Yes, I like being around their friends, but they aren't mine. I never got that ‘best-friend’ like my sisters have, and since they have one, I’m not going to do anything to change that or stop it.

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart…
In all thy ways acknowledge him, and He shall direct thy paths.
Proverbs 3: 5a, 6